Lila. Nerfighter. Starkid. Gleek. Directioner. Daisy Pusher. Crisstian. Defier of Gravity. Awakener of Spring. Violater. Misfit. Newbie. Musical Theatre Geek. Oh, and I love Ramen Noodles.
I feel like I should pick my favorite aside from Not Alone so… Jealousy.
“Cause every time that I feel like the world just got lighter
It seems like my muscles give out
It’s got nothing to do with me
It’s not even you, you see
It’s part of my chemistry
It’s this jealousy”
The interview where he talks about the feelings behind it is the best.
Interviewer: How about “Jealousy?” That’s in the middle of the disc, and definitely a departure from the rest of the songs. It’s sandwiched in between romantic tunes, and then there’s this one that’s very angry.
Well, it’s not angry…
Interviewer: But it gets there–
It gets there, but it’s a coping song. I like to think I’m a pretty level-headed guy, and everyone would like to think that they’re pretty composed, so when we have these little moments of fault, you’re just like god damnit. All this sure-headedness that I thought I had is being totally messed up, and I hate it. So, I wasn’t in a jealous rage by any means, but I was experiencing some sort of envy, and it was just pissing me off because it was so needless. I was literally like, “I hate where I’m at right now,” because I’m acting crazy and I’m doing all these things… The only way you can cope with this is knowing “it’s got nothing to do with me” or this person–it’s just this chemical reaction that is based out of primal, biological things, and once you come to that realization, it sort of asserts this power over those feelings. So that’s where “Jealousy” came from. It was me trying to conquer this very embarrassing fear that I just didn’t want around, so I think by the end of the song, the battle has been fought.
